Blogging is Hard

Hello all, and thanks for checking out my website. I have to say that thinking of blog posts is much easier than creating, editing, and publishing them. Even that last sentence was hard to write, in fact I'm not even sure it makes sense. 

Blame those people that have complimented my writing, my energy, my stories... I can't tell you how many times people have told me I should write a book. Yes I can, I lied. 7 times, but one of those people was not my mom. 

I guess something stuck because I had the confidence to start this. Yikes, even typing that I have confidence is uncomfortable. 

Anyways,whether you stumbled upon this site because a friend shared a post, or found it on the way down a rabbit hole, you can probably tell it is new. If not then let's keep it a secret. 

The layout isn't to my liking. There's not enough content. The whole thing is a bit cheesy. I am trying to grow as a person every day and want to share that growth with this blog. I want to teach, entertain, and use this tool as a healthy outlet. 

Some posts might get personal. It's a very vulnerable process, I don't want to share the details of my life, but at the same time the idea of inspiring someone delights me. 

I have suffered from anxiety and depression my whole life. I have had battles with alcohol, my share of toxic relationships, and enough instability to match the tectonic plates on the west coast. 

I have moved around quite a bit, and have lived in 5 states. I've earned a couple degrees, and have the debt to prove it. 

I have had more jobs, girlfriends, and addresses, than I can count on both hands, and all my toes! 

At any given time there is at least one family member that I am not speaking to, and my circle of friends has shrunk to a dot. 

I am far from perfect, quite neurotic, and some days a hot mess. If you made it this far you may feel like you're damaged goods too. Well then awesome because those are my kind of people. I love battle scars, after all life can be war at times. 

I try to practice what I preach, but usually preach what I practice, and practice makes perfect. See what I did there?

For example, I wrote about self-care in one of my posts and a week later fell into another episode of depression. You think I was practicing self-care? 

Learn with me, grow with me, fall with me, and get right back up because that's what I do. I have strengths, and I will use those strengths to carry me through the rest of this life.

Stay tuned, be kind to yourself, and to others.

- Jay